Just thought I’d fill you in real quick…. it seems I’m going to have to wait until after the 5th of December to share more with you on the newest health issue, my DVT. After doing some more research, it’s become apparent this is a very serious matter. I’ll be seeing another doctor on the 5th and should have something to report back soon after.
I’m gathering all the information I can about the issue to post here once I get it all straight and the facts about what’s happening to me…. bear in mind, I will only speak about the issue as it pertains to me. But for many it will be a great jumping-off point to get curious enough to ask your own questions and come to your own conclusions about it… REMEMBER, THIS WEBISTE IS ONLY A DISCUSSION MECHANISM, AND IT WILL NEVER REPLACE THE CONVERSATIONS YOU HAVE BETWEEN YOURSELF AND YOUR DOCTOR!!!
This has really thrown me for a loop right now and I’ve become more and more curious as to what the condition is all about!
I will tell you some good news…. my ear infection is clearing up nicely. I am almost done with the strong antibiotics but I will still be going to the ENT to make sure all is ok… I cannot afford for any infection to become too severe as it will end up in my bloodstream and eventually in my hip…I’ll be more on top of this and will not hesitate so long before I get help.
Dr. Sparling made sure I understood what position I’m in. It’s a “damned if I do, damned if I don’t” kinda place. I can’t afford to pay for a doctor’s visit, but at this point if I don’t pay for it now, I’ll pay in far greater currency later by letting something like this go. I’ve made the commitment to wellness so I don’t really have a choice. I made the commitment to my doctors, Dr. Sparling, Dr. Smith, and Dr. Crovetti to do my part to make me a whole person. And it’s my responsibility to keep up my end of the bargain. Too many patients don’t keep their word and then wonder why, down the road, the doctor can’t fix a problem. It’s because the condition has been let go for so long, you’ve tied the hands of the doctor treating you to give you any form of relief just because it’s too far gone.
I think that’s why we often see doctors become apathetic to a patient who continues in the bad lifestyle after a life-altering medical event. They are not gods, they are instruments of God, empowered with the knowledge to do His healing through their hands. But it’s that very caring that is often slapped in the face when a doctor realizes no matter how much he explains to a person, until that person WANTS to take control of their own personal healing, he can only do so much.
That must be really hard for a doctor to face every day, day in and day out. I’ll never forget the words of my dad’s surgeon at the Cleveland Clinic when he told him, “Joe, I’m not God, I was able to fix you for now, but you don’t have much good tissue left in your heart from all your smoking, and if you continue the way you have eaten and smoke the way you have, you’ll have to have another open heart surgery in about 9 years.” And he did, almost to the day…. and he never stopped smoking or eating the foods he loved. My dad was his own worst enemy.
I know how hard a struggle it was for him to try and quit smoking, almost as hard as it is for me to get up and get moving after all these sedentary years. But I don’t have any other choice, just like he didn’t but yet he chose to ignore his doctor. I don’t want to ignore mine. They’re wonderful people dedicated to saving lives and first doing no harm. I’m not perfect by any stretch but I keep trying, I keep striving for that place I need to mentally be so I can overcome all my obstacles, not for anyone else but ME! BECAUSE I’M WORTH IT!
If there never was a time in my life when I ever thought I was “worth it” then now is the time I really need to believe it….so, I’m going to the docs and I’m going to do my best to do EVERYTHING they tell me to do… I DON’T WANT TO DIE NOW! They gave me back waaay too much for me to not hold onto it! I’m changing, my life is changing and it’s mostly for the better…. I’ve still got a lot of fight left in me for the many fights left to be fought and I need to just do it, but do it NOW!
After proofreading this post it sounds more like a rah rah speach before some football game, and maybe it’s more for me. Maybe I need to see it in print, read it, feel it so I can live it. This road I’ve been on hasn’t been easy to say the least, but I do know what path I want to take now, and that’s been half my battle. I have many things yet to accomplish, and to be ME doing them….
So pray for me if you will, let me know how things are with you, and remember to always take care of you and yours….
I’ll be back soon,